Song in my mind ~ Rod Stewart - I Was Only Joking (Official Video) 1977 *RARE*
'Cause what I'm doing must be wrong
Pouring my heart out in a song
Owning up for prosperity
For the whole damn world to see
Quietly now while I turn a page
Act one is over without costume change
The principal would like to leave the stage
The crowd don't understand
Well its been since January since I said anything... as I didn't really have anything to say. Work is still work.. Either feeling really good about doing a good job, to hating almost every aspect of it. I saw a few shows, mainly got to see this years Tony Winning Fun Home. Yet another role I would love to do is the dad in it before I get too much older or fatter.
Went to my first pride parade ever in NYC... Wasn't planning on it as it was two days after SCOTUS struck down all Anti-Gay marriage laws, I was sure something bad would have happened.
I have done better paying off the credit cards. I work a ton of extra trips and I decided no vacation destinations this year. Esp quite frankly I hate going alone... so yeah surprise still alone. A few wow ok then's but then nothing after that...
Still wondering if I'll keep the Deputy Chief position next year. The election was close enough that if the people that got pissed off last could manipulate and get their way. Esp if people are blind to the bad behavior that was shown during this year.
More and more I'm feeling that I will just never find peace in this world... its either fighting with my father that no we should not kill every Muslim, to being afraid that yeah some of the bad guys could get through with the mass exodus coming into other countries because of what is happening over there... and well other right wing nut job ideas that he has floating in his mind thanks to Faux News. To still dealing with doing that really nice thing last year and having "wart" having the wrong idea and misleading people to how that trip went. You know me... by now, if someone is going to hate me, at least let me really give you a reason to hate me...
Lets see.. nothing much else... other then what was turning into a positive for 2015 is now just a half positive. I'm currently Asst Director, Lighting design, and have the Role of George Gould Strong. This is a very decent role, one solo and a lot of ensemble songs. A lot of talent.. its been a lot of fun.. and there are a few cuties that come around...
Going on 6 months shy of 20 years of losing the one person I still think about everyday, and the what if.. I did a project of reclaiming a plaque I got made for him a while ago, and I thought I did a good job of restoring it. It looked great for a few months, but its now coming apart and this stone like tile that had the best. This isn't the stone, but its the poem.
I miss him terribly, especially since I guess I'm never going to find one that would be a close second to him. Oh well... same old same old, wish I felt better, to not hope cancer or a major coronary would just bring me peace finally.
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