Song in my mind ~ Peron's Latest Flame - Evita

WTF... haha.. no clue why that song is in my mind... I don't know the words that good.. and I kept thinking it was dangerous game... instead of latest flame. oh well... but thats just the song in my mind... nothing else... haha

It has been a rather dull two weeks. I started taking vitamins again, making me feel pretty good. Went skiing at Holiday Valley a week ago... About KILLED MYSELF... Strangest snow I've encounter since skiing in Arizona... I have the biggest contusion on my left thigh.... But it was nice getting a fairly good day of skiing in, in a place I used to call my second home. I miss not being a half hour away.

Other then work, DuBois just doesn't and may never feel like home. Then I see scum bags taking over Bradford as well... so ... maybe I'm a man without a home... Nope I'll pick NYC for that.. haha...

Work is slow, I got requested for a longer trip this upcoming week, so that is why I switched around my oncall slot, however since we are so slow they may not be able to allow that. To many others not getting the steady work I can't steal that.. and I understand. The coach liked that I watch the event... well.. honestly... well.. I'll keep the whole thing to myself... but for that event... I would def be a supporter for it. haha.. It's all good. But it was nice. She thought I was a "nice" driver, and I enjoyed the observation.

If I would have kept the original slot I had a ticket to see a special showing of Milk in State College with a meet and greet reception afterwards.... That would have been nice. Oh well.

This weekend I "re met" a very nice and very cute senior from Penn State. Good talker, he's a good singer of everything 80's... he likes Phil Collins..... he likes just about everything else I like that thinking if I told just anyone they would think I was a dork or something... haha It was a nice Valentine's Day overall. He's leaving for grad school after this May... and the poor kid is waiting for more of the schools he applied for to accept him. But he's already been accepted to the University of Hawaii ... I feel so bad for him... no good options at all.. haha... I hate him.. haha... Actually made me want to date him more.... I could handle having to LIVE in Hawaii for two plus years.

But for once I felt at ease in Chum's. I was attracted to him. However I was completely at peace knowing that only friendship could happen. Esp, if anything more would, him leaving the area for good would be hard. (not that that last statement needed to be included in this)

Ken keeps txting to see how I'm doing... And I have to admit. I'm not being a complete ass... but somewhat. I won't be mean to him. But he lost all chances on anything more then a occasional hi. I feel bad.... But he knew enough of me to know thats how I would have probably reacted since I'm set on never letting anyone use my feelings anymore. And I'm more convinced that I'm not capable of feeling that way would would allow anyone do that. And as I see this trait in alot of other gays. Maybe its a good thing. I didn't want to be heartless. But I can see self preservation being a good thing.

And the main thing is I'm the one that supports me.. and I can do whatever, whoever, and whenever I want... haha..

I'm hungry, I'm gone.
j