Song in my mind ~ Higher Window - Josh Groban

I drew my line across the sand
And set my flank in no mans land
But here I am the one man band
With a song that's meant for two

Hello, sorry I haven't posted in a while...  Been busy.  However the song choice this time is a song I would have wrote, if I could write...  I really love this song for a few reasons.  One its beautiful.  Two I have to thank, a gay from DuBois, that "ignored" my friend request, however since he ignored it, I still see everything he writes about.. just can't respond.. haha...  I thought the above lyrics were a bit strange.. but it registered with me.  Then I heard the song and when those lyrics came threw I say whoa....  and hooked ever since.  It makes me think of Eric...  well..  yeah it does... however I understand that prob will never will happen...  So I guess it would be "too late" for me to love you....  But who knows...  I did tell him to search the song.  I could also see him singing it.

So thanks stuck up guy...  oh well.  

Lets see, I hit a stupid moment....  I actually asked the LB if he wanted to go with me to Alex Bay for vacation.  Thankfully it didn't happen, and Thankfully, he didn't use it to tell the BHOH to come down and trash the house or something.  Yeah... why the hell would I even talk to him.  If after the fact I thought I put my property in risk...  Not a good answer.  Even though alot of people like him.  He acts that he cares about the big picture.  Really he doesn't...  and well its like you need a booster of a vaccine to work.  Just engaging him, was enough for me to say no way. For a long time I hope.

Alex Bay was fun.  I actually hit on the hottest guy in the bar at the time.  He was a very nice str8 boy.. but well.. it was better then nothing.  And I sang with a few other hot guys from Ft. Drum..  I kept hinting about DADT was ending... none got the hint.. haha  But I drank more "Adult Beverages" then I have in some time..  and well since I was using pedal power, and on vaca, responsible while at it.

Speaking of BHOH which I know I shouldn't...  but for heaven sakes... with the help of Facebook, his spiraling downfall, is just so, addictive...  What he has thrown away over the years.. me and his other stupid ex...  he can't see that the thing that he is dating is just using him.  Plus they really don't have a home.  They have roommates, that well will event get fed up with his Shhhtuff. Again I almost feel bad for him... Almost...

I've seen a few shows in NYC, got another coming up in a month.  It will be Phantom for the third time this year.  haha..  Still I love that group and just spending time with them is a blast.  

I haven't gotten alot done around the house like I had hoped.  Summer just flew by, and me not being home alot didn't help.  Some issues with were I keep Jacob...  But hopefully this will work out.  Somehow.

However me being the crazy cat woman of Rockton is probably helping me not find dates.  However Isabella, and the others have worked things out and things seem to be going well.  She just got fixed and declawed last week.. so she's a staying I guess.  haha.. She is by far too smart and fearless...  she just does what she wants...  its funny.

After a break of five years, I'm back on the boards.  I'm Rapunzel's Prince in Into the Woods in DuBois.  Other not getting the part I really really really really really wanted.  I didn't devo out, and I stuck it in... (my ego) for a bit... haha  Got to get to know some really nice people.  I wish a few of the cast were lets say TEN YEARS older...  but enough of that...  Again I keep telling myself that single is best.  I can't take the stress.  But a little heavy petting right now wouldn't be bad.

Just not from them... for at least 10 years... just saying.  

Oh well...  typical on call weekend from Hell, but glad its almost over.

J