Song in my mind ~ Maybe - Next to Normal the Musical

I don’t need a life that’s normal
That’s way too far away
But something next to normal
Would be okay
Yeah, something next to normal
That’s the thing I’d like to try
Close enough to normal
To get by -Maybe N2N

If only that was the case. One can dream. Oh well. Up on call, and yep.. its been hell...

First better things....

I was in Atlantic City earlier this month... it was cold but ok. The one bar that I liked is still closed... There was another, but the Sunday night show I used to like started at midnight and that was way to late for not having sleep and I wanted to be rested to get home.

The next weekend was my semi Bi-annual group to NYC overnight. As always the group was great. I got great parking Friday night after hunting longer then usual but the space made up for it. I saw Bye Bye Birdie, it was ok for the price .. haha... The kids were good, however I wished the choreography was better (yeah, not good if I noticed that) the dances were ok, just a bit awkward. However the really young cast were good. I saw Mat Doyle before the show (he's in it) he was little chatty for preshow and a bit late.. haha.. I think he remembered me from Spring Awakening... He was good.. and well the two leads were ok... however I wished they would have made the role their own instead of reproducing Dick Van Dyke and Chita... The father did that... he was excellent, a so not Paul Lynne dad.

The next day I got the same GREAT parking spot. Went to the village, got a bite to eat and then saw Next to Normal. OMG!!! One excellent show. I'm almost mad it didn't get best musical over Billy E... both are great... But N2N broke alot of rules... and it worked! I was surprised in Act 1. I'm never surprised. I didn't know the plot and glad I didn't. It slapped me right in the face... which was good cause I didn't see the plot twist. Amazing!!! And the music is just super great!!! A must see. I already told my Canadian Twink that I want him to play Gabe, and I want to play the Father. And the way the staging is that it could be done on a Community Theatre stage. Lighting is a hugh factor, but I think it would be able to be pulled off. However the biggest thing would be finding the cast. I think Tommy could do Gabe, and I really think I could do the father... however both are a major, major undertaking. The the emotions are high... but then who could I find to play the mother... I thought Jekyll and Hyde would require psychotropics.... Mother would need 2x's that. Her emotions, I don't know how anyone could separate the two. You must go see Next to Normal on Broadway.

Next show is def Hair, I would like to see that... and I want my mom to see Next to Normal so we may try to do another two shows in a day. maybe. haha Although I'm really sad... My Gaydar is def gone. Jonathan Groff from Spring Awakening just came out... and he's dating Gavin Creel from Hair. Ok Gavin is cute, and I wondered why Jonathan was in DC for the equality march.... but all those cute pictures with Jonathan, esp the one he tipped his head towards my shoulder... and I told him the only reason why he didn't win the tony over David Hyde Pierce was David came out.... I really wondered what he thought when I said that... I really believe Jonathan was STR8... wow... I was wrong.. they are now the new power Broadway couple.... haha

Well I haven't for ages talked about any "lust interests".. and well nope.. still none. I had one that was trying to play me.. I avoided that. And another that when I met a year ago I was intrigued, however, I don't see anyway that it could be obtainable and not lose friends. He said things that could have been taken as hints, but then again... when can I ever be certain about that... I just decided to let him talk to me when and if he wants to... and not encourage anything that I think could lead to drama.

The loss that is expressed in Next to Normal of course has me thinking of Jamie. Wow 13 years... and still the loss is right there. So now I see that maybe I'm just embracing it. Not wanting to get hurt anymore by anyone...

Maybe I’ve lost it at last
Maybe my last lucid moment has past
I’m dancing with death, I suppose.
But really, who knows?
Could be I’m crazy to go.
They say you should stay with the devil you know
But when life needs a change
And the one devil won’t
You fight to the devil you don’t