Song in my mind ~ Louder than Words - Tick Tick Boom!

"Cages or wings? Which do you prefer? Ask the birds. Fear or love, baby? Don't say the answer. Actions speak louder than words."...... Jonathan Larson

I don't know why but I caught myself singing that earlier.... good song... esp the part....

"Why do we stay with lovers, Who we know, down deep, Just aren't right? Why would we rather put ourselves through hell Than sleep alone at night? "
Words I remember everyday....

Well quick update.. On call again... and for a slow weekend I decided to put myself threw a little hell tonight, hence I'm up at 2:45am...

Found out Tony is overly friendly with a 16 yo female... gross... however I guess I can say I'm the new cure for homosexuals... sleep with me you go straight.... But I won't say that. He just is living up to how most of the people I date... they are just all users.... as most (NOT ALL) bi's are.. So being over the whole thing with the unexpected thing in NYC.. I'm ok again and glad I'm single.

I did have another Celeb moment in NYC.... I meet two of the Tony nominated actors from Billy Elliot... one was the winner, however I felt David Bologna should have won it over Gregory Jbara... don't get me wrong he was very good... But David stole the show... even from the Billy's... But I got pictures with Gregory and David... very cool.... During that visit to NYC I got to see In the Heights too... for free.. that was a added bonus. It was ok... Also during that visit I got tickets for mom and I to go back to the city in September, I want her to see Billy E and she wants to see Rock of Ages, so we got both for the same day. (Haven't pulled that off before... two different musicals in the same day.) David is 13.. but I had to kneel on the street for the picture.. he looks almost 8... no offense... Hey that should work for him and his amazing talent for some time!!!!

I'm falling if love with Chris Colfer from Glee.. even though his tweets and character are a little too gay for even me... haha... Funny growing up we have imaginary friends... these days kids don't even have that anymore... Everyone lives vicariously threw Twiter... that we actually think we know these people. (I foresee the stalking convictions tripling in the next decade... God have mercy... the crazies are winning.....) Don't worry... I'm too old to stalk anymore... and fat.

Ok.. bitch session coming up. Last weekend... didn't have to work. Saturday the most perfect day to take the boat out... yeah the one I spent $350 dollars on so it would work perfect... DID NOT WORK PERFECT. The freaking throttle stuck at 4 grand..... (makes docking in a slow wake zone a little interesting) I have only used the boat a total of 4 times since the new engine got put on, and the boat place insists that it was not there problem.... grrr....

Sunday gets better "NOT".... Finally there is a psychopath in my life that I'm not dating.... Poor Jacob (my horse) is still in exile because this one other horse is psycho... I researched ways to hopefully correct this but I'm hitting a wall with the other owner... Oh well.. Hopefully this will work itself out.

Gets better.... after the being stressed over the horse thing I go home and this neighbor kid decided to stalk me. Knocked on the door... ignored that... caught him looking into my apartment... thank God I was dressed... little disturbing.... but I ignored that... Well Monday morning I noticed wood jammed in my one lock of my car, and both locks of my truck. THERE WAS ALMOST A MURDER.... And the locksmith was no help. He wanted to go the route that would have cost the grandmother over $500 dollars.... That was BS... so... I figured a way to get it taken care of without costing money. I'm hoping this will be last of the stalker.

Comon.. I want just for once, a cute, sane, of legal age, stalker.... haha... checking my twiter followers... yeah.. I have nothing to worry about in line of any of that.... haha... Bloody hell...

Work has been slow, however I'm a little behind with the office work end... grrr.... I'm still getting fatter.... don't know why... I'm actually dieting and down to about 25% less food intake.... The blood pressure is like 170 over 170... yeah... I should be dead by now...

Jacob seems to be adjusting well... we rode once, and I thought it would end badly by the start... he was being little sh*t... but he turned it around and was really good. Sometimes I wonder what the hell did I do. Sometimes he gets a little weird... can't figure what he's needing or wanting.. but overall its going better then I thought it would.

I was going on vacation in the middle of July... planing on Pine Grove on Kinzua... however that went south with the boat being miserable... and work put not one, not two, but FOUR different meetings on the days I was planning to take off. haha... So maybe I'll aim for a weekend at Alex Bay in August. (if my weekend work picks up)... what else... the secret work trip is last week of July. Its a free trip to NYC. Carnegie deli, sailboat ride in the Hudson... Empire State building... (last time I was there it was only negative 50 degrees... haha) So it will be nice to remain feeling my fingers... I am looking forward to that. Again all you shallow gay guys out there... you missed it.. I could have taken a date. however... I'm taking mom. It might make me look a little like a loser.. however.. She's the best and deserves it... so there. bite me.

Guess I'm done ranting....

Best,
j