Song in my mind ~ We live on borrowed time - A New Brain the Musical

Hello and greetings from the 1000 islands again... yep thats it... twice in one week.... and just working so its not as fun as I would want... haha...

Actually there has been alot going on, however I've forgoton to post them in a timely fashion, so there, gone out of my head... haha

AS for work goes.... its been busy... surprised? haha.... I've been saying that a lot... However its suppose to slow down a little. But then the boss says this is our busiest June yet. haha..

I was in Alex Bay on Thursday. Took a senior group from central ny up to there, and saw a fairly entertaining show.... but they loved it.. haha... And then Friday headed to Jersey to do the same "chinatown tour" to Niagra Falls and Toronto and 1000 islands.... However this year the tour guide in on the money and I'm getting my "legal" time off with no problems. So it been better then last year... But this seems to be a tradtion now.. haha... well least I know what I was in for.

Gawd.... I do wish I get a BF... just for the fact I have been thinking about the Black hole of humanity a lot... and I HATE that. Don't know why I have been. However.... I almost put Lyin Eyes from the Eagles in my song in my brain thing... That is TBHOH's theme song... I thought that was funny when I listened to the words. So that is why I won't be weak and call him. And I don't give a toot if your lurking and reading this. You leaving me was the best thing you could do. I have turned everything around in my life.... job, money, fun..... you would have contributed nothing, not saying I wouldn't have still turned my life around.... but I would have had to carry you, just as your latest screw is doing, while you cheat on him too.

So that is why I placed "We live on borrowed time.... its a beautiful song, one I would sing at my commitment cerimony if I ever have one.. haha...

I am headed to Atlanta his weekend. Not driving I'm flying down. A friend at work wanted to do some driving school thing for Saab Snobs.... haha... and he didn't want to go alone. Well I guess its a way to get out of on-call..... I wouldn't want to go there alone myself either.... so thats what friends are for. Never know, I might just meet a southern gent that knows how to treat a man... haha...

Ok the river is calling I want to sit by it for a little bit before the tour boat comes back.

Best,

J

Song in my mind AGAIN! ~ Defying Gravity - Wicked!

Hey all…. And I mean all… I can see the stats and I have a lot of lurkers…. Why doesn't anyone ever give me kudos????????? And if your cute…. Your number?????? Haha….

Busy week again… I have only been in the office one day this week, that would be Monday, off Tuesday and signed the papers for the boat…. Shanksville (Flight 93) and the Quecreek Mine Rescue on Wednesday in Somerset PA, Pittsburgh Zoo on Thursday, and Corning Glass on Friday…. NYC tomorrow…. Yawn….

But I have Sunday off and I'm heading up to pick up the boat and get it to Graybill's to have it looked at. If they don't have a cheap windshield, I think I decided to go against it. Really don't need it… and hope the engine just needs tuned…. If that's the case… I might still be going to Toronto…… hehe….

Wednesday I was tearing up a lot. I thought about Mark Bingham, he was the one that Melissa Etheridge wrote Tuesday Morning about…. Openly gay, republican that was one of the ones that fought back on 9/11 on Flight 93. Plus I just remember how lonely I felt that night…. And kinda still do…. I remember I was still in the closet, and scared about being gay…. Now being showed that other people just wanted me dead because I'm an American…. I'll never forget that night, and wanting to do something that night. Just to help…. Remember last Saturday I was just at ground zero….

The wicked song is back in my mind again… I talked with Dr. A on Tuesday about the week of hell, and what it did to me with having flashbacks to the Black Hole of Humanity… but overall he thinks I'm just doing great…. I'll give him a good to ok….

But just a few parts of that song that I listen for….. Which kinda summed up what the good doc said.....


Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by
The rules of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes
And leap...

I'm through accepting limits
Cuz someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try I'll never know
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost

So if you care to find me
Look to the Western sky!
As someone told me lately
Everyone deserves the chance to fly
And if I'm flying solo
At least I'm flying free
To those who ground me
Take a message back from me!

Tell them how I am defying gravity
I'm flying high, defying gravity
And soon I'll match them in renown
And nobody in all of the land
No one that there is or was
Is ever gonna bring me down!!

Best J!

Song in my mind ~ Maggie May - Rod Stewart

Well its on the radio its not in my mind.... haha

Well.... work has been nuts.... really busy, both in trips and attempting to renew after the fire.... I think I'm gonna past out when I get home tonight.

I'm only on-call for today (sunday) do to having to go to nyc yesterday and Erie and Pittsburgh the day before. So I only get a half a day off on Tuesday, which I have the Dr's appointment in Bradford, and to sign papers for the boat.

Yep, I'm now a sole owner of a power boat. Yahoo!!!! I've been wanting one for a while now, and my father doesn't want our old one anymore. It will be perfect for me. I just have to get some engine work done, and repair the windshield from the 2003 Tornado. (somehow I feel he turned it into the insurance and is just keeping the money..)

So I will be able to use it for about 6 weeks this year hopefully... haha

New York was painless for a Saturday, It was one of those that you don't have much down time so I usually don't like those. However, on the first break I got a good walk in, went to Colony Music and bought new sheet music books (since I have started back up with voice lessons again) and then bought 2 "ON STAGE!!!!" tickets for Spring Awakening for August 13th. So I was quite happy indeed. Of course then I got really good sushi! haha....

In August I taking one of my cute 18yo str8 friends down to the city. And this time str8 in fact, does mean str8, so I'm just being nice for the hell of it.. haha... naw he's a great person will we have fun.

Not sure I'm making it to toronto this year with the expense of getting the boat ready.. but I feel it is a even trade.

Oh well...

I think thats it.

Best,
j