Song in my mind AGAIN! ~ Defying Gravity - Wicked!

Hey all…. And I mean all… I can see the stats and I have a lot of lurkers…. Why doesn't anyone ever give me kudos????????? And if your cute…. Your number?????? Haha….

Busy week again… I have only been in the office one day this week, that would be Monday, off Tuesday and signed the papers for the boat…. Shanksville (Flight 93) and the Quecreek Mine Rescue on Wednesday in Somerset PA, Pittsburgh Zoo on Thursday, and Corning Glass on Friday…. NYC tomorrow…. Yawn….

But I have Sunday off and I'm heading up to pick up the boat and get it to Graybill's to have it looked at. If they don't have a cheap windshield, I think I decided to go against it. Really don't need it… and hope the engine just needs tuned…. If that's the case… I might still be going to Toronto…… hehe….

Wednesday I was tearing up a lot. I thought about Mark Bingham, he was the one that Melissa Etheridge wrote Tuesday Morning about…. Openly gay, republican that was one of the ones that fought back on 9/11 on Flight 93. Plus I just remember how lonely I felt that night…. And kinda still do…. I remember I was still in the closet, and scared about being gay…. Now being showed that other people just wanted me dead because I'm an American…. I'll never forget that night, and wanting to do something that night. Just to help…. Remember last Saturday I was just at ground zero….

The wicked song is back in my mind again… I talked with Dr. A on Tuesday about the week of hell, and what it did to me with having flashbacks to the Black Hole of Humanity… but overall he thinks I'm just doing great…. I'll give him a good to ok….

But just a few parts of that song that I listen for….. Which kinda summed up what the good doc said.....


Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by
The rules of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes
And leap...

I'm through accepting limits
Cuz someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try I'll never know
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost

So if you care to find me
Look to the Western sky!
As someone told me lately
Everyone deserves the chance to fly
And if I'm flying solo
At least I'm flying free
To those who ground me
Take a message back from me!

Tell them how I am defying gravity
I'm flying high, defying gravity
And soon I'll match them in renown
And nobody in all of the land
No one that there is or was
Is ever gonna bring me down!!

Best J!