Song in my mind ~ Its the bitch of the living - Spring Awakening

Just a quick update.... The fire was ruled arson. Which surprised no one down here. I'm moving past the stages of grief and being pissed off.... And my boss was buried on the same day as Jamie was, so that day is doublely sad. I'm meeting with my insurance company tommorrow to place a claim on what I personally lost. I'm up to about 1700 dollars... no wonder I went bankrupt two years ago... gawd I have a lot of stuff.... haha....

I got the renter's insurance in hopes I would never have to use it. Least I have it. You get smarter in old age.

Well the dry spell is over.... Last week I visited one of my bi bois in Bradford, and it wasn't bad. Not at all... I'm out of practice... however... like I said I'm starting to like not having the drama of anyone else in my life. But I don't like being this much out of practice....

The nightmares that came around after the "week from hell" have stopped... and my bad mood and the chip I had on my should have decreased. I even had a visit to "the doc" scheduled, it has been a while since I felt the way I felt when the "black hole" left it's mark on me. However, I'm kinda happy I'm sorta bouceing back a little faster. I still have a doc appointment but I had to switch it from Thursday to sometime in May. Work had me in Toronto again last weekend, and it seems I'm going for a longer stint this weekend.

Well... I wanted to keep this short. And I don't give a crap about spelling so I'm not even spell checking it. But in closing, I came the closest to contacting the Black Hole, why I have no clue, just with the week from hell had me thinking about when I thought my life had ended. And for a brief time I thought two weeks ago it ended again.

But it seems, I'm still here.

j