Song in my Mind ~ The Living Years - Mike and the Mechs

Well the last week has been full of ups and downs.

It started last Friday by me reading in the era that Eric's dad passed away. Eric has been a crush before I even knew I was gay. Something always drawn me to him.... even when I loved to hate him. He was and will aways be good at acting dance and song. And in my early years I looked at him for my rival, and in turn he helped me to achieve the level of my talent. One of the only ones in Bradford, one of the few in the area that I was able to learn something from. Its been over three years when his mom passed. I felt horrible then.... but back then I still felt I was evil in my "caring" about him, so only some of my sheet music was present.

Later that day Lisa and I went to Pittsburgh to get Jared.... well.. Jared is Jared.

Enter Scott from a few months back. He's been looking for me. Don't know how he keeps losing my number.. but he's been seen on the porch, and Lisa and Jared met him while I was doing a Family Reunion Karaoke.

Well on Tuesday I attended his Eric dad's funeral.. and with my distaste of funerals that a big thing. He seemed genuinely happy that I was there for him and his sister that I went to school with. We made a dinner date to catch up tomorrow.

After the funeral I with over to my friend's store and walk dead into the Troll and his "whatever". They left as soon as they saw me. Reminded me of Cockroaches scattering when you turn the light on. (well at least in the movies I've seen) I just reminded the whatever that he still hasn't registered his vechical that expired in March. And it seems he still has a NC drivers lic. So he's illegal in every sense. And thanked him for buying the troll the red car for him able to do illegal things with minors with. They just left... like they knew they couldn't respond.

Well a bit later from that I met Chris from Bradford. We left the store and did ice cream and then came to my house to get to know each other better. Not sure where or how this is well work out. Not much sleep tues to weds...

Dinner with Eric was nice. He was HOT. His Tshirt was just tight enough for me to see what I would like to see... more of... hehe. Winter in NYC he wasn't dressed that light... so .... oh well... we talked about alot of stuff. He opened up to me about some things that kinda shocked me. But that was in the past... he's doing great now.. even with the overbearing crush that losing both parents at such a young age. He's very happy with Peter back in the city. They are moving in together in August. And it don't seem that I'll see him the weekend in sept I'm spending in the city. He's got a time share that weekend out on Fire Island. But someday... I hope that maybe I can tell him how I really feel.

Karaoke sucked at Charlies Wed.. so got a extra hour of sleep. Which is good because I got hired at 2:30pm on thurs to do karaoke that night for The Red Garter... which is a GREAT gig to get. Two hours of sleep to work on for Friday. Came home passed out. Worked Sat... Chris visited again.. and now .... Talking to str8 boi number 2... BYE!!! hehe

Best,
j