song in my mind - It was to much to ask for ~ Up with People

Oh well.... oh well.... whatever.....

Nothing much going on... Went to a Memorial Day party today... alone.. surprise??? hehe.. It was clear I was remembering what was exactly going on a year ago. (the finale with the troll) I don't miss him at all. I do miss something, but its not him. (but I think I've made that perfectly clear already in a few past posts)

As for sunshine... Nothing. Unfort I did see the troll Saturday night... and he was stupid enough to look in my direction so I gave him the one finger salute. hehe... I know I should be above that. But hey.. he made the mistake of looking at me... and I don't want him to.

I was talking to someone from Erie tonight. Lit bit older then Sunshine. Not much but enough. He was nice... but it ended without any secure way of talking again. However... I really would like to find someone I'm attracted to more closer to my paths around the sun. But if they are Smart, Cute, and nice... I must be a gentleman and such.. hehe. But the song from Up with People just kicked in.

"It was too much to ask for I'm sure, but it would have been nice just the same, to be on top, number one, having fun. Not to be last to be picked for the game."

Oh well... the song actually turns out that he gets more then he thought he should get. Maybe sometimes there are happy endings. So... I guess I will just wait and see what is to happen. Will there be "Sunshine". Hey its been a year in the making... UNTILL I know for certain either way... I'm going to "long".... But I have already seen a more patient side of me... so its not that bad.. hehe...

I'm going to bed... night

J