Song in my mind ~ Heaven Help My Heart - Chess

Maybe it's best
To love a stranger--
Well, that's what I've done.
Heaven help my heart.

Well its been two months since I updated this.  Really not much to speak of.  Its that time of year that next week I have my favorite NYC group, and well...  I'm watching my Pennies so I didn't get to buy tickets for any of the shows I really wanted to see.  I would have love to see Newsies, but I have some minor repairs going on at the house and well priorities are priorities.  Well the show the group buys is Chicago...  which will be the second time.  I liked it the first time we saw it.  Oh well...

Eric and I are getting together.  Lunch and possibly a show.  Not sure what we are seeing... but it will either be a show he gets a good price on through the union, or TKTS...  Looking forward to seeing him.... 

As for my life.  I'm dealing with losing my boss, and my beloved Mimi....  Not sure if I missed any other passings...  There was a point I thought there was just too much going on... 

Mimi was my Songbird Angel on Earth.  There was no one more devoted to loving God then her, and my goodness...  She had a voice of angel with SOUL!!!  Weekend of her funeral I stopped to pay respects, then drove up to Vermont to get my really expensive and kinda really uncomfortable ski boots (which I might be taking to New York on Friday to get adjusted...) and I listened to Chess on the way back and that was Mimi's and I's favorite soundtrack to listen too.  Funny how that re-popped up in my mind.

Reason the song is my mind is that seems the only relationships I have are very distant and well the other has no clue...  Mainly because the whole relationship is based on being impossible on many levels.  But it seems I'm just finding myself caring about the younger gays.... and well...  They will never know about it, and well it probably could care less.  Maybe its more then mentor or even a father type feeling.  I'm just in awe of even gay anymore.  Some of these younger ones...  I can believe that they are gay.  Don't look, or don't act...  well some do...  but just these are different times...  And I just hope that they have all the good in life that life has to offer.  Oh well...  Jason patron saint to the gays... haha

The neighbor kid helped me put another cat door and outside room on for the cats.  This one is higher and on a side they should be able to keep a better eye on the neighborhood.  haha.  He is also now on the list to hopefully have on to check onthe cats when I'm out on longer trips at work.  He seems to be a pretty neat kid.  13 now.. I give him 2 years.. haha

With Megabus doing unfair practices Washington DC is now a place I don't even want to visit anymore.  Not that I ever did.  So maybe there won't be many long trips....

Guess I'm in rambling mode.  As for spring cleanup around the house I'm doing good.  I want to work on one side of the mound, either mulch or something different since the grass doesn't want to grow.  Do something with the flower bed in the front of the house, something with the ground between the Cat's Condo and the mound, and the flag pole.

Oh well.. On call hasn't been too bad... hope I just didn't jinx myself... haha

Best,
j