Song in my mind ~ Still ~ You'll think of me - Keith Urban

I don't understand it. Wed, at the therapists we both agreed I was doing well... it was a month since I seen or heard of the LB... or the troll for that matter... Well that ended Thurs AM... I wake up to see that the LB has notified me of his "New" cell phone number. It was a whole month... So again I let my guard down. Only said what I thought was safe and smart. About my new attitude, and officially saying my life was going well without him in my life. But he wanted to call and talk. Of course all the facts and "feelings" that I learned over the last month are false... I kept asking myself, we are all these people lying and "He's" the one telling the truth. Chances of that being true is possible... like... maybe a point one nine percent.....

But two interesting things came out of it. I asked him if he was interested in someone... He said Nope.... Not even looking.... so I at first thought his "date" last friday bombed... and that might have been the reason why he was sinking to call me up. But according to his blog... he's just gushing over this new twink from Olean. So that would be a lie correct?

And the Troll's Blog about being in love with this unnamed person.. and buying beer and hating his current screw disappeared... This was a topic we talked about... so.... I don't know...

He was suppose to call last night... and didn't .. surprised as much as I am? I didn't think so.... So... I only slipped for a day... and again I'm back to looking for much better things to come.

Example of that is, I have a group of people really don't know me that well, coming up from the state college area just to visit tonight at karaoke. If people that like me from the few times I chatted with them during the bus stops in the last year are coming all that way for me... That there is proof that the LB should see what a amazing person I am and quit screwing with me...

Only if he could have a conversation with me that I can't so easily disprove. And why do I have to investigate in the first place.

LB good luck with your Olean hottie. and leave me alone. Thanks.

Love to the rest of ya.
Best,
j