Song in my mind~dead air

Well. Even though I broke silence by asking the LB why he ignored me. Seems its still continuing. He's been on the service at least twice now and didn't reply to my message.

His latest blog has him drinking and thats not legal. His profession he shouldn't be doing that. Cause if he gets a criminal record.... He'll never get a job in his field.

One... if he's as out of control that his blog and some of his old friends say.. I don't want that in my life.

Two... if was just using me for the last year.. he's doing me a favor.

I had no problem going from calling him sunshine to the "LB" again. And part of me should be really happy reading the hell he's been going threw. Esp when I told him in June that if he went back out with the idiot that cheated on him with the troll CJ, that he would get exactly what he's getting. He's ignoring me when I would definitely be there for him in every sense of the word.

But hell he's 18. The odds of it working is naught. I just wish I could feel better about this downfall. Instead of wanting to make him happy.

Why does my feelings and emotions always work against me.
Wish it would end.

J