Song in my mind ~ There's a Fine Fine Line - Avenue Q
there's a fine fine line, between love... and a waste of your time... (and yeah thats not me.. if I looked like that I wouldn't be single)
Well there isn't much to pass on since the last update... and I see my readership is dropping worse then Romneys polling numbers.. haha... oh well... never said I was that interesting...
End of August and most of September has been pretty lean since I spent more then I should have up in Alex Bay... and funny I haven't seen Logan since the day after that trip. I few text messages.... however he wrote a facebook update about how it sucks waking up having next to nothing.. and well... I wasn't the whole... supportive whatever do the the fact that once again he was distancing or ignoring.. or whatever... A relationship isn't a text message now and then... And well... since we never had sex, because he hates it.. and well... Other then a one or two hugs, I'll give him two on starting or encouraging a cuddling moment... It wasn't a relationship, it was barely a friendship. He decided not to get to know me more, and well.. spend more of his time with people that I'm not sure what their motives are the best... however... as I learned from the BHOH... you can't make or anything else someone want to be in your life. Esp when normal guys of his looks, built and everything else, would not be interested in me... Oh wait, thats what happened... Oh well... I don't hate him.. and I wouldn't be mean.. and well... I would never not talk to him again... Other then well... freakin not talking, telling me why he is not talking... is the only bad thing he did.
So alone again naturally. I'm not hurt, just a bit pissed because there was a time I was liking having some companionship.. oh well.. Wasn't meant for my life. Again, other things I'm way better off then any of my ex's (except for Seth). So since my body still gains weight, and well... I can't seem to diet without getting major hunger pains a I feel dizzy when I don't keep snacking... I'm just waiting for the big one to come I guess. No big loss...
Only karma plus is I think the BHOH is single... interesting if he can live by himself... however maybe he can, because remember from all reports it was like he was me 9 years ago, and dating a big mooch.... haha.. Karma gotta love it. Few times I have had to stop myself from breaking silence... I can't imagine any good from contacting him... So...
The house is a mess... I seem to have no energy, and major couch potato... Work has again been very stressful.... I do have to say I really kinda hate my current situation.. But as in the past it will probably pass..
Oh well
j
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