Song in my mind ~ You run - Bare Naked Ladies

I tried to be your brother
You cried and ran for cover
I made a mess, who doesn’t
I did my best but it wasn’t enough

You run away
You could turn and stay
But you run away from me
I’ll give you something can cry about
One thing you should try it out
Hold a mirror shoulder high
When you’re older look you in the eye - You Run - BNL

Well, I'm back from Vancouver. Not sure if I have more grey hair or not... But it was a worthy experience for the most part. On the way out I got to hear the new BNL song. Wow... once again if I could write music, this would be a song I would write. I could direct this song to a few people who have passed through my life.

AS for Canada, I really really need to become a resident... haha... hell they still run the 1980's show the littlest Hobo... haha... and every hour every morning the NON-CENSORED Loonie Tunes!! Life is good... (I felt like I was 8 again.... but still... haha)

Vancouver was very pretty, I would move there in a second... Even though I had some challenges up there in my job position, overall I think I was able to impress most of the people that mattered. I met a lot of nice people out there. Some not so nice.... haha... don't understand, I usually do better with the lesbians... but there is one that don't like me at all.... oh well...

So I'm back, and the cats and the horse for the most part are doing great. The cats decided to do something that required me to do a major spring cleaning... oh well. Tootsie is being a good little girl. I think she knew that she needed to suck up, because I decided if I came back and she was just going to be another anti-social gurl cat like Elphy... that she would become a outdoor cat at moms again. But nope. She's just as cute and lovable as she was 60 days ago... and for that matter Elphy was like hey I missed you too. Ceeto def missed me. For the first day back he wouldn't leave my side. Even Jacob (horse) just was very vocal when he saw me for the first time back. So I felt missed... at least by the four legged ones...

There's been more letters from Isaiah. Again... I'm concerned about this. I'm being nice. He said he's changed.... However, he's in a mess right now that really I can't help much with. I don't want to be mean, but then again, I'm not going to put myself in a position I'm gonna regret.

I have something on the 17th when my usual group has me take them to NYC that some people could be considered a date on some level. It's probably not, however I'm looking forward to it. On Saturday Eric P (look around the 2005 blogs) and I are gonna do sushi and a show to catch up. I found him on Facebook a few months ago... and well.. he finally responded back when I gave him a clear date when I was gonna be in the city. He's a special person. He will always be. I remember I used to hate/lust/something/I don't know him back in the day when we used to be up for the same type of parts in shows back in the day. Not that he had anything to worry about. But I owe him a lot. He was the fodder of me improving when we used to do shows together so alot of him is in my talent... Where ever that went these days... He's told me in his messages his life has been "all over the place to say the least." I'm just glad he hasn't been scared off like I do so well... and I don't know how or why that happens.

My new lesbian self proclaimed "Harem" and I met up tonight... I met them right before I went out to Vancouver and they seemed to like me. (see, normally they DO like me).... Well tonight while we were out, I saw this simply drop dead dreaming hunk of a boi toy... with a much older friend. I'm not sure he's even gay, because he doesn't act it... Which frankly isn't fair. I'm so over all the young queens and thier drama, so I don't even care anymore... but he's is so... wow... like I needed to take a cold shower after I got back. Well the one Harem worked with this guy and she thinks she can work some magic.... I'm not even sure I could handle him anymore.. haha But very very dreamy... and not gayish... NOT FAIR... oh well.

I'm going to bed.

Best,
j