Song in my mind ~ Wicked Little Town - Hedwig and the Angry Inch

Hey, Happy Holidays everyone…

Not much going on… work has slowed down, and I think I did good at getting everyone a decent gift for Christmas. Mom I did really good, and step dad not bad.. the sister.. well I broke down and bought something for her but didn’t really want to. Mom thinks it went better this year, that’s all that counts…

Went up to Bradford Saturday – Sunday before Christmas, did the Xmas party for the School bus drivers up there, and it was nice to catch up with them all. Then I went to Charlies…. I heard the Troll aka The Black Hole of Humanity has been going back there. Oh well… I heard Dolly has even been behaving when he has been there. Which is good. I have no time for him, but the me that had emerged from that relationship is a stronger and better one… So… I might even behave myself if I ran into him… haha… oh well.. It seems the place he has been working at has been the center of a lot of illegal things, so I would assume he’s in the middle of it. Only thing that bugs me he did ask the bartender if he saw me lately. I just realized I don’t want him asking about me. He don’t have the right. He is pond scum, and that is it.

Hehe… LB news as well.. (no wonder I don’t go home that much) Well, he crashed his “sugar daddy’s” car into some trees and fled the scene, and come to find he hasn’t had a license for a some time…. And he wondered why I wouldn’t co-sign a loan for him. Oh well.. I did feel bad for him for a spilt second, he had a blog mention that his step dad killed his laptop in a drunken fit. But I see that he is just a user of people, although I have little pity for anyone that would give that screw up a car with no rules or something.. I’m a fool for love but that’s pushing it even for me.. haha…

Well… overall, I had a good year. Vacation in Atlantic City, Alex Bay, …. Some great weekends in NYC, 5 Broadway shows, probably a few other things I’m forgetting… The truck is gonna be a little more cheaper to fix, so a weekend getaway to Toronto is still possible before it gets too busy at work again. One of my friends at work is thinking about taking a amtrack from New York and doing a circle up to Buffalo to Cleveland down to Pittsburgh and back to New York, that sounds very interesting to me.

Nothing in the love department, but then again, after the savage, I’m ok with that to. I get to just have fun and don’t have to worry about anyone else. I keep telling myself that is a good stage to be in. The two people I have mentioned above right now wouldn’t be able to survive on there own. They are using and being used. I don’t have that that in my life. I feel bad for them. They both had a chance to have it good. But they are getting what they wanted. And I know I don’t want them or their life.

Best, J