Song in my mind ~ We Are the World Ala Kapers

Hey all,

Its Friday on-call and I’m already going nuts. Not a good sign. Two call offs and nobody to cover cause everyone is already working (Including me) and I’m waiting for a plane to come in and I get to run a short run. I’m gonna be beat next week, cause I already took my comp day. And the next two weekends are gonna to be nuts.

Reason why I took my comp day early cause I had a dentist appoint in Bradford, (I always have one the second Thursday of November because of Kapers. Well this year it really was no need to.. but mostly I’m glad I did. After the appoint I visited Ginny and we caught up, and had lunch. Amazing how I don’t talk on the cell phone anymore… now that I don’t drive 47 miles one way anymore. And the job doesn’t really allow me to chat either like the concrete one did… so I do lose touch now. Then I went and visited the School Bus Garage… this time they didn’t put me to work but it was nice to catch up with everyone. Lots of hugs… I miss it…but still again with the horrible decision on the part of the admin to allow a change of management… I’m glad I’m not there. They want me to do their Christmas party… I might just have to get them a cheap price… I think it would be fun to hang with them all.

Next I stopped by the old apartment and Lori and I got caught up. I miss a lot of Bradford… Funny… I knew I would… Then I went out and seen Jacob, (the horse) and he was just as cute and bullheaded as usual. I brushed him (however not my best job) I didn’t want to get filthy going to Kapers. He about got me completely covered in mud when I put him back. And I felt bad.. I could tell he wanted more attention when I had to leave.

Then I went to Kapers. I was kinda worried that maybe they wouldn’t want me poking in. But overall no problems.. they let me go backstage, however I limited it. I did what I thought was right. Saying hi is one thing but being a complete distraction is another. Well I was out in the audience and one of the regulars came out and give me a bit of her mind saying that I needed to be in the cast… just before she came out I already started getting emotional, so of course hearing this I started to weep. The show was good.. I think they are going too far in the Variety Show theme… it needs some kind of format. Oh well… They did mention me in a way in the show… When the Kuties came out, they said “last year they chased that mailman to DuBois”… they also gave a Fullington a shout out in connection with Hollywood Helen. That was nice. Sheldon, Casey’s brother, gave me a hug, that was nice.. he’s str8.. but cute so I’ll take a cute hug anyday.. haha… Casey did good, she was afraid that she’d never get a solo again, and she did… I’m glad I was able to start that. It took me from 92 to 95 to get a solo… so all is good. Rhonda was great with her little girl, and there were some great points. Some … half so… But I miss it. And the good thing, it was apparent I was missed up there as well.

I been thinking if I did the right thing. I gave up the bi bois, karaoke, most of my theatre chances, a lot of things, for this job… and granted I think the job is the best job I have ever had. A real career. But meeting people, I have no hope in it anymore. I don’t think they make the type I was originally in love with, and that’s Jamie… I find the Black Holes, the LB’s and the Red Face Liars…. And I’m too good to be allow that type of scum in my life, and won’t anymore… but the Twinks that have it together…. Just like I don’t want to be with a less they perfect bod, why should they… However Wed night I did talk to a Kev from Altoona, very cute, 21, and it seemed to go well… but we shall see if we ever chat again… So oh well… wish that plane get in so I can get some sleep.. haha.. oh well…

Love ya Bradford, least the good people of Bradford… gawd I’m starting to sound like Hollywood.

However the truck is not loving me… I seems its gonna cost me over a thousand… damn Toyotas the pumpkin is starting to leak. I did want a new truck.. but since I don’t use it that much I was hoping to save a good bit of money next June when I have it paid off. Which I will.. the thousand plus right now will be tough… but with work being nuts like it is… I will be getting the hours. So wish me luck.

And I’m not looking forward to Christmas. With no significant other… I don’t care anymore, still not talking to the sister… Step dad will be step dad but worse since my mom did move out for a couple of months, so I don’t even want to stay over at Christmas. I was gonna go to Toronto really soon… but with the truck being a turd, that won’t happen… oh well… (I was done typing originally at Love ya Bradford, but that damn plane still hasn’t taken off in Ohio. Grrr… but I’m gonna lay down anyways.

Best,
J