Song in my mind ~ Bad Day by Daniel Powter ???

Where to start....

High speed is here, but that hasn't helped with the postings.. The Savage (Isaiah) hasn't been seen or heard from... which is good.

I guess the honeymoon is over at work. I'm getting stressed over something that I will stand behind. Best I can say. And there is stress on the other side, so I'm just wondering where its really coming from. And I'm not alone my whole division is seeing it and some are feeling it as well. It used to be the highlight for the last soon to be a year. But I'm down here, have no body to love or just have fun with. And I'm now wondering if I did the right thing. And really I do believe I have done the right thing. There wasn't much in Bradford, other some occasional fun romps in the sack with my bi and str8ies... So... Just I'm just concerned I don't have a backup plan. First time in a long time, that worries me. Other then that I think all is ok at the job, so maybe I'm just worrying for nothing.

I got to see wicked again last week in NYC... better seats this time. That was nice. The city was good to me again. ie... no parking tickets.... good food, and didn't waste any money. (Least the job still provides me that.... that is the third Broadway show this year so I'm doing better then ever in that.)

I'm sad that I don't have time for Karaoke or Theatre, (another reason I hoped work wouldn't have turned stressful) I gave up that part of my life for this job... So again we shall see. I've decided to post a modified post to myspace, I don't want the LB and the Black Hole of Humanity to see this.

Did I say high speed is great? haha

The one J, the one that is gay... I barely here from... and I guess that for the best... the other J... Our friendship has grown... maybe because he and his girlfriend hate Penn State.. But I've definitely developed feelings for him. He'll do something that I can read to much into... But I'm sure he could never return the feelings.... The problem with him he does nice stuff... and I realized that I rarely get the nice stuff my way, so I always read more into it. That allows the LB, Black Hole, and the Savage types in my life. Pretty sad isn't it.. The best thing I have in my life is a str8 boi.

But I live my life, I would rather be down and hurt, then hurt people like the above three I mentioned.

I hope by next month I'm babbling about better things again.

J.