Song in my mind ~ Ever since the world began - Survior

Wow thats a old song.... but its the one i think of Jamie the most with. I took off for his birthday, had a good time for the most part visiting bradford, but I ran into the LB. Didn't know he changed jobs.. Well I almost walked out, but I stayed, I had nothing to be ashamed of.. I love my new job, and warming up to DuBois rather well. I will freaken always care for him, but I'm ok in just caring... I don't trust him one bit. So its ok for me to not really bother. I did however look up his blog, and he's still ranting over the fugly one that cheated on him... and the LB at least has looks and he can't find something better? And I thought I was bad a while back.. But then again I can't stop thinking about Jamie. We are coming up to the ten year mark. And I miss him more then ever. But I stay hopefull and patient for the future. Which for me is amazing... that I can talk myself back to being calm but just knowing I can't control the future, so wait and whatever, whenever, whoever comes will be a blessing then. Its kinda impowering. But the 14th will be hard.

I have kinda met someone new.. but I'm again not too worried if it doesn't progress. I know there are people out there that can't believe I typed that. But its true, and I'm doing well in the majority of the areas that count the most, so thats where I can back it up.

But oh well.. I'm on-call in State College, and its been quiet today. So thats when i can update this.. yeah the dial up at the house still sucks stinky stuff. But thats good I get other things down.. thats except for when I'm in front of the tube... the everything pack is pretty kewl on dish network...

And I need to get back to the gym... oh boy.... Lidia cooks tooo well for me.

But around the house I'm exploring, I tracked down the old tunnel I was trying to find, and it was interesting, its in the shape of a backward S. And the fire dept is keeping me active.. My Gawd I'm still in love with the str8 boi... Oh well.. Again who knows. Till next time I guess.

J